October 29, 2020

How can I serve you?

A close friend recently told me, “I love how your apartment has a revolving doors policy.”

So do I! But it’s not the physical doors themselves that I want to stay open - it’s the internal attitude of INVITATION.

This has been the theme on my heart recently.

Invitation has to do with opening your heart and home to others, to really inviting them to enter and authentically encounter one another. To be nourished in a space of intentional friendship, accountability, and growth.

And yet, invitation scares me. Invitation is a deeply personal revealing of our inner selves. In the past, when someone didn’t accept an invitation, I felt personally rejected. So to protect myself, I started expecting people to say “no” to coming over. In fact, I started wanting them to say no.

In my pride, which was masking my insecurity, I believed that their ‘no’ meant that I had done my part in inviting them, but had been let off the hook of actually having to interact any further. It meant I did not have to reveal the inner parts of myself.

How uninviting! I yearned for deep connection, but didn’t know how to make it.

I desired intentional friendship, but didn’t know how to give it.

Now, I’m learning. Now, I have chosen to walk intentionally into friendships. To learn from others when they pursue deep connection.